Looking at the silver lining

I have to just write to remind myself of all our blessings. Shawn has finally been hired up at the compound (airport 2) in west valley. This something we have been hoping for, for a very long time. Yeah!!! it means some job security and he will be doing what he loves, working on helicopters. He will be back on nightshift, but we are not complaining.

Autumn is getting better at softball. This is her first year and she has done suprisingly well. Yesterday Karolyn and I were doing her hair for their pictures and she was acting very funny. The next thing I new she was colapsing to the floor. She had locked her knees and passed out. It was very scary, but luckily I had the other half of my co-dependant relationship to help me get through it.

Morgan is getting excited for all day school next year. She is going to be the smallest 1st grader ever. She is a big help. She loves Molly so much. The only thing they argue over are the baby dolls.

Ashtyn is Ashtyn. Her vocabulary is growing as fast as she is. so she says even more random things. She definately catches thing that you think she wouldn't. Like the fact Dumbo gets drunk on the movie. She is our brown eyed monster. She is also my big sweetheart. She makes sure to come give me a hug many times throughout the day and say I love you.

Molly is getting huge. She is now sleeping in her own bed. And all we have to do is lay her down with her bottle and she's out. She is beginning to say lots of words and do lots of signs. Some real, some not. She has turned into a very lovey baby.

I haven't really done a lot. Just the same old stuff. I am trying to start a monthly group of making scrapbook pages so if anyone is interested.

We have recently had some events that remind us just how stupid the little things I stress about are. We lost one of Shawn's grandfathers. Thank goodness we went to Miami in April. He was able to see all of his great grandchildren before he past. And any future ones are there with him.

He was such a cute little old man. Very southern and very set in his ways. He was a great man. I didn't know him well, but you couldn't do the things he did and be a bad person. He adopted Shawn's dad and 4 brothers and raised them as his own. Any man that does this is a wonderful man. Maybe I look into it a little more than others because of my children and my fantastic husband. I have to believe that Waynes example is what made Shawn such a great dad to all our girls. Wayne also inspired Shawn to join the military, and it was Shawn's drive to make him proud that has pushed him so hard. I wish I had known him better. I know that through his Fantastic son, Dan. That my children will know their grandfather.

I was so sad I couldn't be in Miami to be there for Joan, Dan , and Marsha. I have come to love them all so much. It killed me not to be there in their time of need. I know the feeling was mutual for them. Shawn is going to miss his Grandfather greatly. It has just been recently that Wayne had told him how proud he was of him. That means more to him than all the money in the world. I am so glad that Shawn has support from that side of the family, too. I can't begin to say how much I love them. I just feel such a bond and hope that someday they can forgive me for ever believing the horrible things said about them. Enough random rambling.

I hope that all of you reading this know how much you mean to me. I am so glad to know that I have such a great support system of family and friends. It really helps get me through my bad days. Don't sweat the small stuff. I need to let everyone know I love you all and am so thankful for the great people I have in my life. Please tell those you care about how much they mean and that you love them. They may know it, but they still need to hear it a lot.

Thank you Wayne for helping make my husband the Fantastic Man that he is. Here's to you. You will be missed greatly.